Goals?

Well Benjamin is 18 months and we are ready for another baby. Last time it took us so long to get Benjamin and I don't think I'm going to be able to just get pregnant right away.
I've been doing a lot or research lately on supplements and doing things the natural way and I think it's going to make a difference.

But, before we have get pregnant, I feel like I need to drop about 20 pounds. So that is currently the plan.

I don't think my Amazon order will be in till the end of the month.
In the mean time I will workout out and count calories! Wish me luck!

Here goes nothing!

So, I'm pretty sure no one will even read these posts and I'm kind of happy about that. I really want a place to right down my thoughts and my progress.
I'm determined to make this work. And I don't want to post it all over FB. I kind of just want to do this and see how it goes before shouting it from the rooftops.

I'm not going to post my weight or measurements. I'm pretty self conscious right now. I may post them after I see improvement but we'll see.

Weight Loss?

Currently I am on a weight loss journey after having had my sweet little one  18 months ago!
Just to give some perspective to this journey I suppose we have to start from the beginning!
All through high school I weighed 160. No matter what I did I could not gain, or lose, weight. My periods were crazy and that is just how it was.
When I got married in 2011 at the age of 19, I began the Insanity program and a strict diet to try and lose weight. It did nothing for me. In fact, I was 3 weeks into the program and I actually started putting on weight. No it was not muscle. It was fat. So I went to see the doctor about it. This was not supposed to happen!
The doctor began by testing my thyroid and sure enough my levels were off. They started me on synthroid and I was excited to finally start seeing some results and feeling better.

Fast forward a couple months and I had put on 30 pounds, I was tired, emotional and depressed. Clearly this was not working for me! I decided that I would stop taking synthroid and try it again on my own.

It didn't help. I was feeling helpless and didn't know what to do. I was 200 pounds, tired, depressed, and I wanted to have a baby!

Things continued the same for a while, I kept gaining, nothing was helping and it wasn't looking good. In December of 2012 we found out we were pregnant. I was beyond thrilled. All I ever wanted was to be a mommy! It was the best day of my life and I couldn't believe it was finally happening for us. Later that night I had a miscarriage.

At that point we decided I needed to see a doctor. We went to a specialist where they decided I needed to go back on my synthroid and they were sure that would help.

This time I did not have an adverse reaction, thankfully, but 6 months went by and I still was not losing weight and I still wasn't pregnant. I then began to start having a pain where my ovaries were and my periods were becoming unbearable.

I started doing research into what it could be and I came to the conclusion that I had ovarian cysts. I went to the doctor with my findings and my symptoms and she agreed to send me in for tests and an ultrasound.

Turned out I was right. I had pearl like cysts lining my ovaries. Know what that means? PCOS.

It took us another year of tests, metformin, and an HSG. Then we took Clomid one cycle and we conceived!
I went on to have a great pregnancy, till the end when I developed pre eclampsia.

Burg Nanstein Castle

Today our Benjamin turned 8 months old! So we decided to head on up to Burg Nanstein Castle to take his 8 month pictures. Why? Because who else gets to take their monthly pictures at a castle?!



This is my first time making and editing a video. Don't judge. XD

Benjamin is 8 months old!

My sweet little miracle baby turned 8 months old today. I cannot believe how fast time flies. He brings such joy to our lives with his happy go lucky attitude!
This month he learned how to drag himself across the floor! He can successfully drink water from a sippy cup and loves to eat puffs! He has tasted many different foods and am happy to report that he loves anything he can eat. LOL

I cannot attest to how much he weighs or how tall he is, we have no measuring tape or scale, but I do know that he is mostly wearing 12-18 month clothes. How is this happening??

Breatfeeding is still going wonderfully and my little man loves to snuggle and nap...a lot!

Today we went and took his 8 month pictures at a castle and I think they turned out pretty well!